Steady My Heart

Wish it could be easy

Why is life do messy

Why is pain a part of us

There are days I feel like

Nothing ever goes right

Sometimes it just hurts so much

Right now I'm laying in bed suffering

My back is killing me. I have thrown out my back several times in my life and right now is one of those times. If you have experienced this before you know exactly how I feel. If you haven't then just imagine labor pain and you might be getting the drift. I of course am a man so I have no idea what I'm talking about. :)

Lately I have been struggling spiritually.

My belief system is shifting. I am being forced to reconsider all I have ever known. Nobody is holding a gun to my head, I am forcing myself. This happens all the time with my work. Technology rapidly changes and new things become possible. Limitations are removed. New possibilities are considered etc. 

with my personal belief system it's quite different. It's NOT exciting. It's incredibly painful. 

Even when it hurts

Even when it's hard

Even when it all just falls apart

I will run to you

Cause I know that You are

Lover of my soul

Healer of my scars

Steady my heart

So just like my aching back I have an aching soul too. It becomes difficult to pray without whining. All day this song has been going through my head. Steady My Heart by Kari Jobe. I discovered this song a couple of years ago and it has often served as a reminder to me of Gods love for me. 

When it's all said and done I know my back will heal and feel fine in just a few days. Life will go on and I will continue to seek answers to the tough questions. In the meantime...

I'm not gonna worry

I know that You got me

Right inside the palm of your hand

Each and every moment

What's good and what gets broken

Happens just the way that you plan

You see it will all be ok in the end. One thing I do know for sure is that God does not want us to get to comfortable. He wants us to keep moving. Which reminds me of another great Christian song.

Dare You To Move by Switchfoot.